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Mar. 24th, 2008 12:32 am so fucked up dream

ok so i no longer want josh but i still have feelings for him since he was my 1st love. well scariest thing happened i have a dream about him and it was normal nothing was werid about it. it was basically, i was married to him and we have a kid named Daminem and i was pregnaunt with our second one. Well we were having a family get together at our house and i went looking for josh with our son. Well i found him alright in a car with another woman, so i ran back into the house in tears.....he runs after me. he tried so many times to get me to stop so he can talk to me. then after grabbing my arm so many times....he got me to go into the bathroom with our son still crying. i put Daminem in his car seat and i just fell to the floor and started crying, after josh locked the bathroom so no one could get in. He sat right next to me and told me that he was sorry and that he wasnt cheating blah blah blah then after he was done....he put his hand on my stomach and put his arms around me. Trying to ignore him i was trying to make Daminem stop crying after i calmed him down.....he said moma, i was so happy. then my aunt lori started banging on the door because she heard what happened between us. She had my stuff packed and saying that i was going to stay with her for a couple of days. While walking out of the bathroom, with Daminem and all, josh trys to get me to stay and i wouldn't. I headed for the car and he ran after me telling me that he will what-ever it takes to make me stay. Then..... i woke up all confused and thinking it happened it was so fucked up i swear to god if that is a sign to happen. idk when that will cuz i dont think it ever will

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Dec. 16th, 2007 11:36 am Thumper banged Bambi

ok so yeah last night my sister and her bf had SEX in OUR room in MY BED!!! i am so furious, drunk or not i dont give a flying fuck! Her and Jeff have told me to my face different times that they have so much respect for me not do it in my bed. Not to do it my ass, and danielle told i will eventually get over it and that it's not my bed anymore. Yeah i will but right now i have a every fucking reason to a fucking bitch, im so mad at her and jeff that i dont even want to talk to them right now. and yeah danielle is right it isn't my bed anymore it was untuil they fucked in it. Now it's just something i dont even want to look at cuz i can still picture they having sex in it. I can't in something like that, if it's going to keep reminding me of what happened in it. so now i am waxhing the sheets they fucked and then maybe i might go over kendahl's to get out of the house. or go drop off kati'e radio that i borrowed. I swear to fucking god tha they have lost my respect and they are going to have to work at to get it back. I wouldn't even think twice about doing that to danielle!

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Dec. 16th, 2007 11:35 am

wow ok so my dad was complaining that he needed another drink. So while we were playing cards, deacon got on the counter and brought both the rum and pepsi to my dad. it was so funny it was one of those you had to be there moment. then deacon went back to get his drink, cuz he forgot it. then after my dad made his drink, him and deacon both took a drink(deacon's was chocolate milk). They both said ahh and my dad burped then deacon took a long time to burp and then let a quiet one out. it so funny again another you had to be there moments

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Nov. 24th, 2007 11:45 pm fun time with deacon!=]

wow ok so my dad was complaining that he needed another drink. So while we were playing cards, deacon got on the counter and brought both the rum and pepsi to my dad. it was so funny it was one of those you had to be there moment. then deacon went back to get his drink, cuz he forgot it. then after my dad made his drink, him and deacon both took a drink(deacon's was chocolate milk). They both said ahh and my dad burped then deacon took a long time to burp and then let a quiet one out. it so funny again another you had to be there moments

Current Mood: tiredtired

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Nov. 11th, 2007 05:49 pm happy vetern's day

So my dad wanted me to celebrate his injure by drinking.I'm just finshined my 6th drink of a screwdriver. My sister made them stronge since they were very light colored. im either very tispy to drunk or i am drunk and don't even know it. well g2g dinner is ready an idk whar is it lo

Current Mood: drunkdrunk

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Jul. 22nd, 2007 01:18 pm Talk With Mom

Ok As all of you know I am moving to Mt.Vernon, Ohio. If you don't well now you do. Well I just told my mom today! She didn't take it too well at all. She was pissed off and then crying. She said that it's best for them(family) to go to Ohio but is it best for Becky?! I told her that is for me to decide.

Then she said that I will find the hard way that Ohio's school are very low and that I won't get the education I need. This is after I told her that Mt.Vernon's schools are top 4th or 5 th schools in Ohio. And she told me that I will learn the hard way that Ohio isn't for me. I told her then Let me learn the hard way,if you think I will make a mistake then let me, this is the only way I will learn. I told her I really want this, i am not ready move from my dad yet not til I go off to college. Also I want to be there when Danielle has her baby.


I don't want to miss out on my future niece or nephews' life. I don't want to miss them being born and then see them when they are 10 and then again when they are far to college or high school. And then she said "are you ready to be a sit-in babysitter"?! I said yeah cuz I have baby-sat before. Not undterstanding the concept she said "no I mean like you want to go some and then danielle does and ah can't go got to watch the baby. I told her it's going to be like that there's my dad,sue,alex and danielle's sister Brittany.


I told her if things don't work and I don't liek it down there. My dad has no problem with driving me back to her house and having me live there. And that you can come and visit me whenever you want for as long as you as long as you bring me back. Then I told her that I believe it is easier for me to separate from everyone now then when I go off to college. She said why?! I said because I will become more attatch to tehm when I go off the college and I will have bonded with them more. Which makes it harder for me to leave them when I do go and I believe doing tihs now will make it easier on me and them.

I told her I'm not doing this to hurt her but this is what I really want. And I would love it if you would let me go.When we were going back to my house, she told me that my dad(matt) should know about this. I told her it doesn't concern him yeah the decion making but you should let him know that you are leaving him. He has rasied yoy for 15 years and he loves you like you were he own daugther. I told her that this only between you,me and my dad. Yeah but you still let him know.

So now this is where I am at, and I have the hugest feeling in my gut that once my mom tells matt, he calms her down and everthing he is going to talk to me. And I'm ready to talk because I will prove to both of them that I am not a child anymore, I am a young adult that is able to make her decions. And it willing to take risks and if she makes mistkaes along the way let her because that is the only way she will learn. I am not longer a little girl anymore and they need understand that also my mom needs to learn to let me go. It's going to happen sooner or later and really I believe it's easier if she lets me go now then later when it hurts a lot worse.

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Jul. 14th, 2007 01:20 am I'm Tipsdy

Apple Pucker and Lemonade is soo good. But it drys up your throat like crazy. On a my 2nd drink about half was down, I was complaining that it didn't have any alcohol. When then my stepdad went ahead and refilled it with more pucker. Well I didn't know that you can taste the alcohol by tasting the pucker. Talk about feeling like a blonde lol. When after my 3rd me,Robert, and Matthew all did a shot od just plain apple pucker. That was fun, Robert was going nuts after we drank it. Then after taking sips of my brothers' smirnoffs my stepdad got some more. So I have a total of 4 drinks if you count the shot half and the refil half too. Then Robert was soo tispy lol He was like wil you help me wash me face with me. Then he was like there's a spider in your sink * turns on foset* Not anymore lol. Then he's like do you know where my superman shirt is. Yeah he was so drunk then he's like can you help me walk the stairs. So I watch him and he starts to crawl up the stairs. I'm hauling ass right now wishing that I had my camera with me. I swear my brothers are so funny when they are drunk. Yeah anyways after drinking all that alcohol in one night. My parents where shocked I was drunk or at least buzzed. My mom claims that I have high tolerance for alcohol like my grandpa. Hopefully I do cuz that would be so awesome!!! ^.^

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May. 22nd, 2007 09:43 pm How Old Do You Have To Be?!

You can drive at 16

You can go to war at 18

You can retire at 65

But how old do you have to before your love is real?!

Current Music: walking to memphis-lonestar

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May. 8th, 2007 03:05 pm Bomb Threat

http://www.wxyz.com/news/story.aspx?content_id=bbc0ef2c-8441-409f-9072-b8473de8c84c

watch it. i had a great day til we had to go back to school and we only had an hr and half left til we had to go home. and instead of being released we stayed in school grrr

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May. 5th, 2007 12:06 pm Razor

I got a silver razor yesterday!!! And the 1st day I got it, I dropped it lol. So I'm telling everyone if this phone can sruvive me dropping it. It's a good phone!!! lol

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